American pop star Lady Gaga was the first guest on talk show queen Oprah Winfrey and British Prince Harry’s docu-series “The Me You Can't See”.
The singer revealed that she was raped as a teenager by a record producer and consequently suffered "a total psychotic break" for a few years.
The docu-series which premiered today on Apple TV+ features famous celebrities and their struggles with mental health.
"I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, 'Take your clothes off,'" a teary-eyed Lady Gaga said.
"I said no, and I left, and they told me they were gonna burn all my music."
"And they didn't stop. They didn't stop asking me and I just froze and I just… I don't even remember."
Lady Gaga| Collected
Lady Gaga refused to name her rapist. "I understand this #MeToo movement, I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not," she said.
"I do not ever want to face that person again. This system is so abusive, it's so dangerous."
The 35-year-old singer further revealed that several years after her rape, she visited a hospital for chronic physical pain and was surprised to have been treated by a psychiatrist rather than a medical doctor.
"I said why is there a psych here, I can't feel my body," she said. "First I felt full on pain, then I went numb and then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks after. And I realized that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner, at my parent's house."
Lady Gaga bagged her first Oscar for her song 'Shallow' in 2019| Collected
She admitted struggling with post-traumatic stress disorder while reaching the peak of her career and winning an Oscar for Best Original Song in 2019
Lady Gaga said that her recovery was "a slow rise" and not a "straight line". "Even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad."
